15 – Can’t Stop This Feeling
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I had lessons in sign-language when I was 11-12 years old. My teacher gave me a sign-language name as part of my lessons. Making the sign for the letter ‘B’ I place my right hand to the right side of my forehead and make a curly movement with my letter ‘B’ out to the right of my face. This sign-name is combining the word for daydream with the first letter in my name.
I love daydreaming.
Jordan Peterson says that when you do something new you discover a part of you that you didn’t know was there. That’s a paraphrase of a much more extensive lecture he gave on the subject, but that was the essential message I got.
What part of myself is yet undiscovered? I want to find out. So, considering my propensity for day dreaming, and understanding that I can type quickly, combined with my deep rooted insecurities about disappearing in the mass of humanity without a ripple left behind, I will start writing stories. If I publish or don’t it doesn’t matter much, though of course I’d rather become a published author. What I want is to create something meaningful that comes from the uniqueness that is my combination of human aspects.
I spend so much time gazing up at the sky through the leaves and imagine another being enduring diverse adventures from worlds away gazing at such a sky with contemplation’s of great pith and moment. Perhaps I might be able to increase the joy and fullness of another person with such imaginations as well. I hope I discover that my true self can write stories that influence the world for good.